She remembers the past. How they used a little girl as their weapon to make her feel bad. How they tortured her emotions just because of one picture. How they made her feel. Guilty.
She clutches her hand into a fist for all the hate went racing through her veins. What was their problem? She had nothing to do with them anymore, why should they bother with how she deal with her life? Just because of her picture with Andy doesn't mean the whole world would collapsed. It was like, they didn't want to see pictures of her and Andy. No, more likely, they didn't want people to know about her and Andy. Were they jealous that they sabotaged her like they did. The words kept ringing in her ears. They were mocking Andy as if Andy weren't as good as their lousy Matt. What was the use? Matt was the one cheating on her. Matt was the one whispering sweet nothings into her ears when they were together. Matt was the one hurting her. Badly.
She cried her eyes out all due to anger. She was angry. She felt revenge within her heart. The ONE family she trusted was siding Matt after all. She realized that that family wasn't to be trusted. THEY LIED TO HER ALL ALONG. She felt stupid. They used little Polly as their weapon against her. They knew her weakness was Polly since she knew about Polly. They used Polly to fire her. When she heard Polly cried on the phone about that innocent picture with Andy, she hated them all right after. It was bad enough Matt sold her camera to another person without her consent claiming he was the one who bought it for her when she knew she went to the bank to buy the camera.
Every single word that came out from their mouths, sting her like salt to an open wound. She felt angry. She hated them. They sounded as if they were helping them… but they were not. They were trying to destroy her relationship with Andy. It was bad enough they made her hear Polly cry. What was wrong with ONE picture? It wasn’t anything obscene even. It was just a picture of her and Andy smiling happily. If they claimed to had loved her like a child even after her break-up with their Matt, they should have been happy to see her happy. Why were they crying because of a happy picture? Was it, just because she was finally happy and Matt wasn’t happy with his fiancée? She thought about it thoroughly. Matt WANTED to marry Chloe. Matt CHEATED on her to be with Chloe. A WHOLE year he cheated on her.
A month before that, before she met Andy, Matt did called her up asking her to get back together with him but she insisted she didn’t want him anymore. She was sick of his lies. The words were sweet lies. But with a condition! In order for her to get back together with him, she needed to produce $3,000. The moment she heard money was involved, she knew she had to say no. She hated him. He didn’t love her. He just wanted money from her. Her instincts seem to be telling her that the money was for his wedding. She stood her ground saying she didn’t want to get back into a relationship with him because of money. She hated him even more already at the moment he said, “but…” She knew what was coming when he said “but”. Her best friends, Jane and Sally were angry. They hated what Matt did to her. Jane was often with her since Sally was working somewhere outside the country. Jane saw all her angry tears and her psychotic laughter after she got angry with him. Most of all, Jane was the one who had to drive her home when she decided to go over her limitations on drinking. Her heart was filled with anger and hatred.
One night, when she and Jane went out, Matt called her again asking her if she wanted to get back together with him. Despite her beating around the bush, with the intention of not breaking his heart into pieces, she decided to tell him she hated him. She wanted him dead and she didn’t want to hear from him ever again. She didn’t want him to love her for money.
That was a month ago. This time, she was facing something which made her hate his family. They were trying to use Polly as a weapon to sabotage her relationship with Andy. Their words, “If you love Polly like you claim, take that picture off your online album…” She was so tempted to slap every single one of them and ask, “Why should you people bother?” Why can’t they respect or be supportive? Hold on… how can they be supportive? Andy isn’t their relative to begin with.
“If it was a picture of you and Matt, I won’t mind…” said Matt’s mother. She gasped in fear. She started to laugh hysterically. She told his mother that she knew Matt wouldn’t want the world to see her with him because he was itchy. He was being a dick. The other thing was she wasn’t pretty or small sized like those anorexic girls.
Despite it all, why did they use Polly as a weapon to get her attention? Why did they put an innocent little girl who doesn’t even know about the truth of her existence into the whole picture? It was unfair that they used a 7 year old to make her feel guilty. It was just a lowly trick to get her.
Now, because of that, she hates the whole lot of them. The people she trusted the most were the ones betraying her while the people who were instigating her were the ones trying to save her. Since it was all in the past, she learnt her lesson… though she wished people like them never existed or don’t deserve to live, she thank God she managed to let go before it was too late.
She clutches her hand into a fist for all the hate went racing through her veins. What was their problem? She had nothing to do with them anymore, why should they bother with how she deal with her life? Just because of her picture with Andy doesn't mean the whole world would collapsed. It was like, they didn't want to see pictures of her and Andy. No, more likely, they didn't want people to know about her and Andy. Were they jealous that they sabotaged her like they did. The words kept ringing in her ears. They were mocking Andy as if Andy weren't as good as their lousy Matt. What was the use? Matt was the one cheating on her. Matt was the one whispering sweet nothings into her ears when they were together. Matt was the one hurting her. Badly.
She cried her eyes out all due to anger. She was angry. She felt revenge within her heart. The ONE family she trusted was siding Matt after all. She realized that that family wasn't to be trusted. THEY LIED TO HER ALL ALONG. She felt stupid. They used little Polly as their weapon against her. They knew her weakness was Polly since she knew about Polly. They used Polly to fire her. When she heard Polly cried on the phone about that innocent picture with Andy, she hated them all right after. It was bad enough Matt sold her camera to another person without her consent claiming he was the one who bought it for her when she knew she went to the bank to buy the camera.
Every single word that came out from their mouths, sting her like salt to an open wound. She felt angry. She hated them. They sounded as if they were helping them… but they were not. They were trying to destroy her relationship with Andy. It was bad enough they made her hear Polly cry. What was wrong with ONE picture? It wasn’t anything obscene even. It was just a picture of her and Andy smiling happily. If they claimed to had loved her like a child even after her break-up with their Matt, they should have been happy to see her happy. Why were they crying because of a happy picture? Was it, just because she was finally happy and Matt wasn’t happy with his fiancée? She thought about it thoroughly. Matt WANTED to marry Chloe. Matt CHEATED on her to be with Chloe. A WHOLE year he cheated on her.
A month before that, before she met Andy, Matt did called her up asking her to get back together with him but she insisted she didn’t want him anymore. She was sick of his lies. The words were sweet lies. But with a condition! In order for her to get back together with him, she needed to produce $3,000. The moment she heard money was involved, she knew she had to say no. She hated him. He didn’t love her. He just wanted money from her. Her instincts seem to be telling her that the money was for his wedding. She stood her ground saying she didn’t want to get back into a relationship with him because of money. She hated him even more already at the moment he said, “but…” She knew what was coming when he said “but”. Her best friends, Jane and Sally were angry. They hated what Matt did to her. Jane was often with her since Sally was working somewhere outside the country. Jane saw all her angry tears and her psychotic laughter after she got angry with him. Most of all, Jane was the one who had to drive her home when she decided to go over her limitations on drinking. Her heart was filled with anger and hatred.
One night, when she and Jane went out, Matt called her again asking her if she wanted to get back together with him. Despite her beating around the bush, with the intention of not breaking his heart into pieces, she decided to tell him she hated him. She wanted him dead and she didn’t want to hear from him ever again. She didn’t want him to love her for money.
That was a month ago. This time, she was facing something which made her hate his family. They were trying to use Polly as a weapon to sabotage her relationship with Andy. Their words, “If you love Polly like you claim, take that picture off your online album…” She was so tempted to slap every single one of them and ask, “Why should you people bother?” Why can’t they respect or be supportive? Hold on… how can they be supportive? Andy isn’t their relative to begin with.
“If it was a picture of you and Matt, I won’t mind…” said Matt’s mother. She gasped in fear. She started to laugh hysterically. She told his mother that she knew Matt wouldn’t want the world to see her with him because he was itchy. He was being a dick. The other thing was she wasn’t pretty or small sized like those anorexic girls.
Despite it all, why did they use Polly as a weapon to get her attention? Why did they put an innocent little girl who doesn’t even know about the truth of her existence into the whole picture? It was unfair that they used a 7 year old to make her feel guilty. It was just a lowly trick to get her.
Now, because of that, she hates the whole lot of them. The people she trusted the most were the ones betraying her while the people who were instigating her were the ones trying to save her. Since it was all in the past, she learnt her lesson… though she wished people like them never existed or don’t deserve to live, she thank God she managed to let go before it was too late.
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